Being oneself...

As nostalgia of those good old school days, the unforgettable and happy life at college overpowers my thoughts, the reality of the gradual behavioural changes at each stage hits me. How one learns to exhibit himself to this exemplary world actually surprises him when he looks back at life. One is not born with the ability to comprehend how one should behave with his kith and kin or his boss for that matter. Apart from your lessons at school and the occasional restraint from parents, who introduces you to that decorum which at each conversation springs up like a saviour. Is the potrayal of the perfect natured, chirpy and resilient personality, a boon to every relation?
Fear sets in at the very thought of being oneself. Will I hurt my colleague if I laugh at his hilarious statement? Why is it wrong to be slow or finicky? Why does having a constant smile on my face become an obligation in life? Why am I wrong if I have a frown on my face when I'm deep in thought and right if I smile for no reason at all? Undoubtedly, a smile is the flickering flame to a happy day ahead, but why do people jump to various unwarranted conclusions if you aren't smiling? Is there no one whose opinions comply with mine? Did you ever contemplate embracing the dark side of that very imperfect person whose positive aspects give you a wiff of fresh air? Who demarcates the innumerable hues of human behaviour?
Ever since you realised that you are an entity on earth, you have been told that you are unique, you are unique; then why is each one of us jostled into that pack of tractable individuals that the world willingly encompasses? Is it possible for each one of us to author our individual concept of pragmatism?

The above is my mind's questionaire that had probably taken a back seat until mental agitation surpassed my ability to restrain my thoughts.

Yes, I quite evidently am one of the most tempermental beings on the face of this earth and yet, I do not fail to realise that this very placid composure of mine has made me the person I am today. I argue, i fight, i cry, i share, i care, i understand, i crib, i sulk, i overlook, i forgive and of course, i err ; coz I'm human!